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THE VICIOUS CYCLE by Onuche Joy


Ever met someone online with a great bio who magically ticks all the right boxes? The conversation is dope and you finally conclude that he/she is “the one”.  You come on everyday expecting a message from him/her. Social media becomes one hollow, empty void without them. In a frail part of your head, you’ve considered how you both will look as a couple – it’s simply perfect! 
You both decide to meet for the first time at 4pm in your favorite spot.  The anticipation builds up to an explosive proportion and you’re almost sure you won’t survive the wait. 
Finally you meet one on one and from afar you question the reality of the moment. 
Boom! 
He/she smashes all your expectations and drops them a whooping one thousand feet. You sit through the date silently praying for God’s grace to see you through and the Wisdom of Solomon to bridle your tongue. 
Suddenly, you can’t stay as long as you planned because your imaginary Grandmother asked you to buy something for her from a store that you only just realized closes at 5pm. Pff! 
You’re safely at home, your head mocking how dumb you were to not have gone through all their photos with microscopic eyes. You curse technology and you swear never to catch feelings online anymore. You remind yourself that some people chat better than they communicate in reality; you remember never to forget that some others have that some others have more photo editing Apps on their phones than the teeth in their mouth. 
Mtcheeew! 
You become distant, they begin to notice. You claim nothing has changed but soon you become tired of the charade and withdraw altogether. 
Next day, there’s a new friend request notification. 
Yeah… there, the cycle begins 

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