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THERE’S ALWAYS A REASON

Hey! Hello guys. If y’all have noticed at all, I haven’t been writing so much and while it’d be very convenient to come up with an excuse I’d rather put it out straight up and tell y’all why.


Artwork by Monika Nowak and can be bought online


I’ve not been feeling myself lately. I know we all have thise days when all we do is just sit and wonder why we have to end up in this continuous cycle but now it feels like my ‘wondering’ days are way more than my ‘carefree’ days.

I’ve been questioning everything like ‘why?’ 
Why stick to the status quo when it’s all going to end the same way after all? 🤔😇

I used to be so sure I was trying my best until I realized that I started a blog and instead of being brutally honest and passing across my genuine thoughts, I’m more bothered about being “the best” on another person’s scale.

It’s like school all over again, working so hard for someone else’s approval.

Thoughts like these go through my head a couple of times everyday. Now I understand when he says ‘I don’t talk about these things cause I don’t think you’d relate’  cause that’s exactly how I’ve been feeling.

So can we start again?
Can we try going deeper?
Can you just drop it all and open up your mind so we can really connect?
That’s a yes, yeah?

If you read everything, you’ve just been mind fucked. I hope it felt (still feels) great cause I’d like to do this again. Xoxo.

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