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The Pain In My Chest

The last few days of this year have been the roughest for me. A week after losing my phone and all my documents in it, my family (dad and younger sisters) and I were involved in a very fatal accident but glory be to God, no life was lost.

Yes, I do realize that it was a total miracle but that doesn't quiet the voices in my head.
To say I feel lost would be putting it lightly cause as it stands, the only thing that pushes past the thick wall of numbness I feel is excruciating pain and it comes from my chest.

I'm in the midst of family but I haven't felt more alone in my life.

This year has hammered something into my head ----- NO ONE OWES YOU SHIT!!!

Lol, it hurts really bad and I won't lie cause I've promised to keep it real 💯
It hurts cause everyone seems to be having so much fun, oblivious to the pain I'm feeling and honestly it's no one's fault.

I don't know what 2019 holds but it's gotta be freaking epic considering how sad I am even on Christmas day but there's one thing I know and I'm very sure of... GOD HAS MY BACK (he's got yours too) and that is all the assurance I need.

Now , I'm telling you, things might not be so great right now but it's definitely going to be better cause without rain there's no rainbow and guess what's at the end of the rainbow 😁😁😁
A freaking pot of gold!!! So cry all you want honey but don't forget that your father owns the whole world and his plans for you are the very best ❣❣

Have a Merry Christmas and a prosperous new year.

Love,
Vickie 😘😘💙

Comments

  1. Noble25 December 2018 at 21:51

    He really has great plans for us�� Do yourself a lot of good by been the best you can be God bless you ❤️

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  2. Benediction25 December 2018 at 22:36

    You just don't let anyone in...some people just want to help..you don't have to be alone... But you are stronger than you think

    ReplyDelete

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