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MIXED FEELINGS

When I came back home, she was lying on my bed actually the bed I share with my younger sisters and she looked so at peace more like so at home and that was when it dawned on me. This is real. Everything is real. 
He had called me on Thursday or was it Tuesday and he’d repeated the exact same things my mom had relayed to me the Saturday before but I didn’t take it seriously. No.

I bent lower to observe her in her vulnerable state and oh my, she’s pretty and this is true. 
My brother is getting married!!!!!

She opened her eyes and somehow I couldn’t look away. She smiled and sat up.
“I’ve been waiting for you”
But why? 

Three hours later I’m still pondering why?
I should be happy. I am. Am I? 
I’ve never been close to my brother, we’ve never had a conversation that lasted more than 3 minutes maybe it’s because of the age difference and now I feel like she’s taking him away from me. Away from us. Am I selfish? Am I crazy?

How do you just leave your loved ones and find new ones? I understand this is another phase of his life and he probably made this decision because he’s ready.
But are we?

That’s by the way. How was your week, I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
I want to know if my feelings are absurd, are they?

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  1. Unknown1 July 2018 at 00:53

    Hey, no your feelings are not absurd, they are perfectly normal, they indicate a deep bond between two people whether or not it looks like it. I would feel worse if it were my sister. Awesome read btw, short and apt.

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